Mom’s First Trip Alone – thoughts and fears

I know what you are thinking – impossible.

Oh it’s possible.

Married for 11 years, a mom for almost 10 and this is my first trip alone. No husband and no kids.

I’ve traveled alone before but not since I have been married and I would be lying to you if I said I wasn’t excited. But I would also be lying to you if I said, I wasn’t scared.

I am sitting at the airport, waiting for my flight and I have the weirdest feeling in my stomach. Add the fact that some are either wearing a mask (corona virus) or wiping down every nook and cranny, it sure amps up the jitters.

But I am weighing my options here and I realize I can and should do this. First of all, I am going to meet my first niece. HELLO! This is the best part of the trip.

Quick recap: I am already an aunt and have 3 very handsome nephews but Zoe is the newest addition to our family and I have to see her in person. So here we go. I can’t wait to meet her.

But…

I am still nervous.

My husband has been away for work and he isn’t a fan of traveling alone either. But it’s part of the job and we accept and appreciate the sacrifices.

So I know what it’s like staying home without him. We have overcome that hurdle. We’ve also traveled alone, without the kids – several times! And that was fantastic. But this is MY first time – alone.

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So here are the thoughts going through my head and if you are a mom, I am sure you can relate:

• I can’t believe I am going away alone.

The worst part about all of this is my attachment to my family. We are so close knit that even sleepovers at aunts and uncles feel too long. I already miss them so much.

• I hope no one gets sick.

I am pretty sure my husband is capable of handling things at home (I think). But being away from them while this whole virus craziness is happening is making this 1000 times worse.

• I think I packed everything.

I am sitting here and replaying what I packed in my carry on bag over and over again. Because my mind was racing all week and I was so stressed, I feel like I forgot something. The good thing is, I am staying with my sister and whatever it is, I am sure she has it.

• I need some sunshine in my life.

I really, really – desperately need some Vitamin D in my life. She lives in Vegas and it’s supposed to be in the 70s. I am only visiting for 48 hours but I will make sure that I soak up at least a few sun rays.

• Did I lock the car?

Ahhhhhhhhh. I used the airport parking and took a shuttle, all by myself. Look ma, no hands. Hahaha. But I seriously don’t know if I locked my car. Oh this should be fun. 😫

• I hope my husband knows where I keep things.

I am thinking about all of the things that I do on daily basis that I don’t always share with my husband. I should have put together a SOP (standard operating procedure) binder for all of them. My husband will get a kick out of this one – love ya babe :).

• I should have skipped the coffee

I don’t know if picking up coffee this morning was the smartest idea I had. I feel funny.

• Please get along.

For the love of everything, I hope the kids get along. Sometimes it takes both of us (parents) to diverge sibling situations. I just pray that everything runs smoothly and no one looses their sh*t; myself included. DON’T CALL ME!

• I am so looking forward to this.

I am okay. Everything will be okay. I can’t wait to meet my niece.

Off I go. We are boarding now. 🙇‍♀️

Stay tuned for my weekend in Las Vegas recap.